I used to be a guy
who was experiencing the world,
but now, I feel like
the world and the universe experiencing a guy.
When the curtain goes down at the end of the drama,
the hero and the villain step out hand in hand.
And the audience applaud both,
because they know
that the hero role and the villain role are only masks.
As an actor, you play characters and then,
if you go deep enough into those characters,
you realize that your own character is pretty thin to begin with
You know? And then you suddenly have this separation
and go, “Who’s Jim Carrey?”
“Oh, he doesn’t exist actually.”
And at a certain point, I realized,
“Hey, wait a second,
you know, if it’s so easy to lose Jim Carrey,
who the hell is Jim Carrey?”
There’s, there’s just…
a relative manifestation of consciousness appearing.
And then somebody gave him a bunch of ideas.
They gave him a name and a religion and a nationality.
给了他名字 信仰 和国籍
And he clustered those together into something
that’s supposed to be a personality.
And it doesn’t actually exist, does it?
And none of that stuff if you drill down is real.
And so you see behind the stage too,
there is the green room,
where after the play is over and before it begins,
the masks are taken off.
Dressing happens, doing hair happens.
Err, interviewing happens.
And it happens without me.
Without, without the idea of a Me.
You know, it’s really, you know,
the fact that we’re already enlightened,
we’re already complete.
And it’s just realizing that you’re complete.
Once you realize you’re complete,
then, then this life and everything in it
becomes a play of form.
Something to toy with and play with,
and make something good out of.
It’s what’s happening right now inside everybody,
is there going, “Who am I?”
And they are depressed.
You know, a lot people
because they’re trying to hold up an image in the world.
And that’s what depression is.
You know people go like, “Oh, Jim’s been depressed.” and stuff.
Well yeah! I was depressed when I was trying to…
be the wizard of Oz,
instead of the sweaty guy behind the curtain.
But now I know that “Oz” is a character, you know?
Everybody walks around,
and they go like, “Why am I depressed?”
Well, it’s because you’re trying to be something for the world.
You know, as soon as you let that go,
better things happen, because they’re just happening.
And there’s been a series of, kind of awakening
that I had in my life and…
You know people talk about depression all that stuff,
I think that, you know, grief and sadness, and all those things
are the ticket, home, nothing.
I think that, that was a part of the process.
There’s been several other awakenings and…
And yet still I have a lot of egoic attachments
that pull my attention and focus.
I think you know the right marriage with the right character
and the right guy is going threesome.
So that behind the scene,
that is to say in reality,
under the surface,
you are all the actor.
Marvellously skilled in playing many parts,
and in getting lost in the mazes of your own minds,
and the entanglements of your own affairs,
as if this were the most urgent thing going.
But behind the scene in the green room,
you always have a very tiny sneaking suspicion.
that you might not be the you that you think you are.
那就是 你 也许并不是你所理解的自己
I used to be a guy