So, I was in a coma.
Great conversation starter, I know.
It’s a complicated story,
I had a surgery and it went bad
and I got an infection and it happened in the lungs
and so then induced coma.
So it was something called a medically induced coma,
so I didn’t just pass out.
They actually gave me drugs and continuously gave me drugs
for a good 2 weeks or so.
So I could be in this “sleep state”,
and they could try and heal me
and get me to live.
So many dreams, so many stories,
so here you go.
This is what it’s like being in a coma.
First thing’s first!
Everything that happens in the real world,
you hear, you’re aware of,
you kinda know what’s going on.
But it goes through this weird,
like ‘filter’ thing in your brain,
and by “filter”
I mean it’s going through the drugs,
and then, it turns into something else,
once it like actually hits your consciousness.
So example, I had a lot of people who’d come to visit
and sit by my bed and talk to me.
I heard my step-mom and my own nanny talking and all that,
and I heard what they were saying,
but then in my head, we were in like a girls camp,
like one of those, like log cabin camps.
And they were gossiping about one of the other girls,
really they were just talking about like one of the nurses and something she had said.
But like in my head, they were like gossiping,
and I was like in on it too.
I was talking back to them,
but I wasn’t actually talking.
And sometimes this messes me up so much
when I’m going and looking back,
like on the whole experience, I remember so clearly
saying something back to them and being like
”Oh yeah, that Peggy“
I didn’t say anything,
so it was like all a weird conversation in my head with everyone,
and I wasn’t even talking.
Another thing that would happen was like,
uncomfortable positions that they would put me in.
My brain would make up a story
for why I was in those positions.
At one point, they had to actually tilt the bed
in something called “Trendelenburg“
which is like literally like tipping you upside down.
So there I was like upside down,
and like swelling like a balloon at that point.
And in my head, I was like ,
going in this weird, like hammock thing,
and then I remember I got like my foot caught in the hammock,
so I was like hanging upside down
And I was like
“This is so weird, why can’t I move?”
Like I should just be able to pull myself up,
but then logic doesn’t really work very well.
The best part, though,
and the thing that kind of inspired a whole trip after I got out of the coma
was all of my Alaska hallucinations.
I’ve never been to Alaska,
I’ve never like shown any interest in Alaska.
But for some reason, while I was asleep,
I kept going to Alaska in my head
and it was so beautiful.
It was like pine trees and coves,
and I remember just like sitting there,
and just like staring at the most beautiful scenery ever
for hours and hours.
And there’d be like a little deer off in the corner,
and it would be freezing cold but I didn’t care.
Turns out, I was getting ice packed the whole time.
So I had a crazy-high fever with a crazy-high infection,
and what they do for that is
they put ice packs all around you,
like they just literally,
like the most advanced thing they can come up with.
So being iced, I guess somewhere in my brain,
所以我猜 因为被冰包裹着 所以我脑子里就想着
I thought like,’ice’, ‘Alaska’,
totally makes sense.
One of the funny things too was the way that people’s voices,
like if I liked the person who is talking,
and I felt safe there,
it would affect what was going on in my head.
And I didn’t notice this at the time,
but, like once I came out,
I kinda like studied the whole experience.
But every time it was my mom or my dad
or people that I love.
It was someplace beautiful and it was comforting.
And when it was people that I just kinda barely knew,
it would always seem strange
and I had no idea where I was and I felt kinda lost,
and actually it gets me thinking a lot about
how that happens in a regular basis,
even when we’re not on crazy drugs,
like how do the people we’re around and the experience that we’re in
我会思考 我们身边的人 我们自身的经历
influence our brain and our minds
and how we see the world,
like Pretty much being in a coma is just like
a very magnified and intense version of our own dreams.
And so, what can we learn from them?
What can we learn about ourselves
and I learned so much from that experience,
I mean, first of all, I love Alaska, apparently,
我的意思是 首先 很显然 我爱阿拉斯加
but second of all, I really love
like it showed me who I care about and who makes me happy
and how the world can be manipulated so easily
and how our own minds can be manipulated
and we can really believe so much.
I don’t know, talking about it
kinda makes me happy in a weird way.
You wouldn’t think that, but, yeah.
So, if you have any more questions,
please feel free to comment,
and I will make fun and interesting videos on them.
Like all of my videos are, right?
So, I was in a coma.