A few month ago,
After knowing Acker to live a while,
And studying the books. I woke up and…
I suddenly got it.
I understood suddenly, how thought
Was just an illusory thing.Uh…
And how thought
Is responsible for, if not all, Most of the suffering we experience.
And then, I suddenly felt
Like I was looking at these thoughts from another perspective.
And I wondered who is it that’s aware that I’m thinking.
And suddenly I was…
Thrown into this expansive amazing feeling
关于自由 跟我自己 跟我的问题有关
Of freedom, for myself, for my problems.
I saw that I was bigger that what I do.
I was bigger than my body. I was everything and everyone.
I was no longer a fragment of the universe.
I was the universe.
And ever since that day,
I have been trying to get back there.
It comes and goes.
就像乘着波浪 有时候我上去了 有时候下来了
It’s like riding a wave, sometimes I’m on, sometimes I’m off.
But at least I know where I wanna go.
And I wanna take as many people with me as I possibly can.
Because the feeling is amazing.